Saturday, January 06, 2007
Photo Hunters: Memory
It is ironic that Memory is the theme for this week. Ever since Christmas I have been remembering how my past life has led me here to Vermont in 2007. Sad memories of a broken family and too many losses make sad moods. Sadness can create fear of the future, also. The past two weeks have been grim.
But tonight, because of the Photo Hunters theme, I knew I had to post this old photo of myself. I don't even know how old I was or where it was taken. What I do know is that I was obviously happy and that I still have the toy dog in the photo. I know his name, too: Boo. I know that because my oldest sister has told me. He is safe in the attic closet, all worn and tattered, but warm.
I have been told that I would never go anywhere without Boo. One day I left him somewhere and he was lost forever. My father had to find an identical one for me, which is the one in the photo.
I spoke on the phone to both of my daughters tonight and IM'ed with my son. They are so supportive and praise me! Can you imagine that? With all the mistakes I made when they were young they have made me the most fortunate woman in the world with three children that are willing to love and support me no matter what. Because of those three conversations, I am feeling stronger again and the sadness is disappearing.
Let us all go forward in 2007 counting our blessings and supporting each other when we are tired and begin to doubt our abilities.
Finally I can say Happy New Year!